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what: my baby shower!

when: july 31, 2005  10:30am

where: san miguel, pasig (more details on how to get there to come later)

stuff that i need:

INFANT WEAR (medium size)

1. 3 side-ties, sleeveless
2. 3 side-ties, shortsleeves
3. 2 side ties, long sleeves
4. 2 t-shirt with 3 buttons on the private part, short sleeves
5. 1 t-shirt with 3 buttons on the private part, long sleeves
6. 1 jumper-like dress with hood, short sleeves
7. 1 jumper-like dress with hood, long sleeves
8. 2 booties
9. 3 mittens
10. 2 bonnets
11. 6 pieces baby binder
12. 6 pieces diaper clip
13. disposable diapers

1. 1 receiving blanket
2. 1 comforter
3. 1 pillow for the head, 2 bolster pillows (hotdog-looking pillow)
4. 2 pillow case for pillow for the head, 4 pillow case for bolster pillows (hotdog-looking pillow)
5. 1 big mosquito net

FEEDING NEEDS

1. 3 formula bottles, small
2. 2 formula bottle, big
3. nipples and nipple cover
4. bottle brush and nipple brush
5. powder dispenser (4 levels) - for milk
6. teether
7. pacifier
8. breast pump

OTHERS (optional stuff; not so important. stuff i can buy later on)

1. feeding set - small fork, spoon, and plate, small bowl, tippy cup or mug
2. vanity set - small brush and comb, toothbrush, nail cutter, polbo case or polbera
3. bath set - baby lotion, baby oil, cotton, very small cotton buds, baby powder, mild soap, soap dish
4. electronic thermometer
5. nursery bag
6. carrier

bawal ang may cartoon characters na: BARNEY, Bugs Bunny, Taz, Tweety Bird, Dora, Big Bird, other Disney characters, Scooby Doo

thanks.

what is failure? just like love or happiness or the definition of what is good and bad, failure is relative. it all depends on one's perception, really.

yesterday, i was hanging out in the garden and my mom was doing.. well, gardening. then she mentioned something about how to discipline a kid. then she kinda had the usual litany again "saan kaya ako nagkamali sayo, hindi naman ako nagkulang sa pangaral..." and all that crap. then she told me that i should learn how to discipline my kid well or else she will end up like me. and then this powerful phrase came out of her mouth "ayusin mo lahat ng kapalpakan mo." i was like "what the fuck?! there she goes again!!" i just kept silent and let her go on with her litany. i wanted to keep the peace in our house.

i understand my mom is frustrated with how i ended up. from the beginning, she has always compared me to my sister. i know she wanted me to be like her. i know she wants my life to be like hers. but that's not the case and that will never be the case. this is my destiny. this is how i ended up. is it that bad? am i in the dumps already that my life seems so bad? i dont really see that my life is that bad. my life right now is okay.. so-so. but im happy with how things are. im happy with my decisions.

if you will base success in terms of educational achievement, then i am failure. i haven't started on my MA's. its all in blue print. i havent finished on my spanish classes yet. but i think people wouldn't find a problem in that area since i finished college and i graduated from a reputable school.

if you will base success in terms of popularity, then i am a failure. but i have made relationships or friendships with a good number of close friends and really trusted friends that i know will last me a lifetime.

if you will base success in terms of money and career, that is something that i am still working on. i have yet to start my own savings account and have yet to be in a higher position at work. but i am happy and content with what i am doing.

i do not see myself as a failure. i have made a lot of mistakes in my life. there are things i did that ate up a lot of time that i couldve used to do something better. but i would not exchange my life experience for a bed of roses. it was better for me to undergo those. they made me a stronger and wiser person. its better that i experienced it early than having to go through it at a later time.

being a single mom doesnt mean im a failure. sure, i may not be married and my kid will carry my surname. but at least my kid has a name. at least my kid has a birthday. at least my kid has a mom who loves him/her will all her heart and will do anything to provide him/her everything. i may have chosen the wrong guy to love. but i did not make the wrong decision to keep this kid and raise this kid on my own. this is what i wanted. and i am happy with my decision. this doesnt make me a failure.

june 20 just passed me by. didnt go out of the house. i did nothing on my birthday. since it was a monday, i cant exactly invite people to go to our house for gathering whatever since people had work. but its all good. i was bored but i didnt have much to do at home and nothing good on tv.

as corny or fake or dramatic as it may sound but i was content on my birthday. my siblings have been asking me what i want for my birthday. i actually didnt want any material thing. sure, i still have a wish list of books and clothes that i wanted but its not as if its a priority or something i was longing for. i was content with my situation since i feel like i already have everything i need -  my family, friends, a job, and my kid.. well, i 2months. i guess i have come to a point in my life where i dont feel the need to have more material things. i was actually even alright with not receive any gift for my birthday. a greeting will all be fine.

well, thanks to those who greeted me. to those who were senile, okay lang. ganyan din ako minsan dahil busy at maraming ginagawa. hehe.

the week just passed by so quickly. was excited for saturday cos its my restday and i can finally sleep longer than 8 hours. hehe.

anyhoo, after work, my officemates and i went to jemai's house for tina's baby shower. twas fun. kain galore again. laughs. and shempre, usapang bastusan nanaman. as always, pag kasama supervisor ko. but its all good.

my officemates have been asking when and where ill be having my baby shower. its gonna be by last week of july. i think. palipasin ko na muna ang 2 payday para magka-pera ang mga tao (para maka-ipon sila. i dont accept cheap gifts. haha).

after the baby shower, went home muna to take a quick shower and change then went to el pueblo for fete. this was actually my first time to go to fete. when i got out of the cab, lo and behold.. puro mga punkistang jologs na naka-black na nakatambay sa kalsada ng julia vargas. i was so scared cos i felt na baka bigla silang mag-riot (knowing these kinds of people) and i dunno where to run. i was thinking of my tummy's safety at that time. (yes, i know, lotsa people will say im a crazy woman for goin to fete in my situation. eh, so what? wala akong balak maburyo sa bahay at ma-miss ang fete noh. ma-inngit kayo. haha). anyhoo, then i met up with anji, marco, and eric. i dont think we enjoyed that much cos there were lotsa people. as in andami. siguro maliit lang kasi yung venue. hay nako, lotsa sweaty and smelly people. and shempre, standing ovation. and it was still scary cos baka magka-riot (or baka super paranoid lang ako. hay nako, ill just wait to go to another gig like that after i give birth. mahirap na.).  i just got to watch part of tropical depression's performance and some other reggae and ska bands (we stayed more in el pueblo kasi). then we kept transferring from el pueblo to podium to see other artists (and we wanted to catch cynthia alexander but to no avail). the only artist i got to see in podium was.. geez, forgot their name. basta its diego mapa and raymund marasigan's band. i got to see barcy and mikki and paulo (blockmates) and an officemate. and of course, some celebrities (shempre, umandar nanaman ang showbiz radar namin ni anji. hehe). we saw juddah paolo and suddenly thought of cheri. sabi namin, sayang. and roxy too but she was touring asia. i wasnt even able to see my manager perform cos di ko alam if they'll be playing in el pueblo or podium. and worst of all, i didnt get to see hale perform live. but i saw the vocalist. hay.

around 1230, we left fete then went to eric's house. i slept for 30 minutes then anj and i had some chit chat about her situation at home and other pregnancy stuff. hay. parentals. but well, we cant do anything about it as of the moment. but as long as they (she and marco) have each other and are all good, im fine with that. she knows im just here to support her and stuff. got home 4am na. and was so tired and sleepy. but at least had a fun saturday.